Just say it...

It's almost midnight and everyone (only the three of us) has gone to sleep...There are a lot things I want to say here, but the words seem to be so shy...Macammana ya? I guess nowadays I'd just like to remain silence...Just listen....No talking....What's the use of talking when no one listens?

So, I went to visit my mum's grave last saturday...True enough like what Abah had told me...somebody's else jenazah was buried beside my mum's. That place is supposedly to be Abah's grave in future...I could sense Abah's frustration right at the graveyard ...Abah will not be able to lay beside emak when he died...I began to wonder, is Allah trying to show something? We knew how desperate Abah was last time asking us to find a 'replacement' for Mak, just a few months after Mak passed away. Abah said he wanted a companion...somebody he could talk to and solat with....I know it doesn't make any sense but it's like Mak merajuk....

Last words...I'm supposed to do my assignment now ...but I feel so sleepy already...