Sunday, June 28, 2009


After so........................................many years working full time at the office and home, today I've got another very important role to play - a STUDENT. Don't know whether I could do the job well or not but I'm willing to give it a try, the best I could give.

So, we had this short registration., about one hour and it's done. However, the briefing which is not brief, started at 2.30 and ended at 5pm (pheww!!!). I was yawning many times (macammana ni? THis is just a briefing...).

Personally, I have never thought that I would become a student again, but then lately I began to think...I SHOULD do something for myself. I've been wanting to do masters since Masyitah was 3 but there were so many obstacles and discouragements that put this matter on hold for such a long..............................time. This time around I told myself, with or without the support, I'm going to do it. Insyallah, with the help from THE above and with some understanding from friends and family, I hope I'll manage to cope all the stress and hard work along the way.

***Just wondering...will I be missing any theatres or concert after this? (Sigh..)

Saturday, June 27, 2009

A Tribute to MJ

My dad rented this video when I was in Form 5. He was so excited about it that he asked my mother too watch it as well. Of course my mum couldn't be bothered about it at all. I was the one whose eyes were glued to the tv. And I thought the video was awesome.

I had my first touch of MJ when I was in Form 1. My classmates and I sang the song, "Ben" during our music class. Mrs Ling made us sang the song. Then I got to know his other songs. I especially like "Ebony and Ivory" where he sang the song with Paul Mc Cartney. MJ is history now...but he will not be forgotten. Adios!

Thursday, June 25, 2009


It was a real surprise to receive an sms from my storyteller, Fadhil around 2pm today. He told me he was accepted to Univ Sabah. I told him to go but he was screaming ( I was laughing out loud when I read the sms) in the sms, saying NO! He was offered to do E-Dagang (Apa benda tu?),a course that was never came across in his mind at all. He said he's going to follow his heart...He is going to apply for UITM at the end of this year to do his favourite Mass Com course....

He was asking for my prayers (of course I will...I always do that to all my students and Fadhil is definitely included in the list). He was worried about his future as the competition among students who are applying for the university entries is very high. What touched me the most is when he told me that he could always count on me at any time (Huhuhu...). And that he wanted to break into tears as he was saying that to me (never thought that Fadhil could be that emotional...). He also wanted me to listen to Miley Cyrus's CLIMB because that's how he was feeling at that moment..
Well, Fadhil...I'm listening to it now...and I understand how u are feeling at the moment. U will be ok...No worries.

p/s : U didnt come and see me before you left the college...

Tuesday, June 23, 2009



I watched this on DVD last night. I was swept by its sensitivity towards culture, love, death and dying. At times I just kept myself in total silence because the scenes were undeniably beautiful and touching. Yes, I'll share these moments with my students soon...

Sunday, June 21, 2009

Father's Day

As I was wishing my husband, "Happy Father's Day", my mind flew off to Simpang Pulai. What was my father doing at that moment? He is old and fragile but the spirit and courage are still there. I was at the kitchen table one day when I saw my Abah who was on wheel chair pushing my ailing mum(who was on a different wheel chair) to the bathroom to take wudhu'. My, my, my...what a sight. And with his limited strength and capabilities he also helped my mum to prepare for solat, wheel to wheel....
Yes, in terms of SOLAT and other religious matters, Abah has no tolerance. He was the first to teach me how to read the Quran, solat 5 times a day, take baths before 6 and go to bed at nine. He also woke me up before subuh when I was young and asked me to read books after Subh before I went to school. He taught me to be responsible for my younger sisters and that I should never leave them behind whenever we walked together. As I became older, he told me to be a good role model to my siblings, in terms of education and domestic work . In short, I must always show an excellent example
to my younger sisters at school and in the house. FULLSTOP! It's quite tough but I have no regret!

To ABAH, TQ for being a father that many children don't have...TQ for being the one and only ABAH for the 5 daughters of yours

Thursday, June 18, 2009

These days...

I don't know whether I'm lucky or not but for the 3rd time in a row the ISO people 'missed' me. My files and documents are not well organized. My cubicle is messy (just like me..). my table, my computer, my work are not in proper order. My life...all upside down. But, God must have loved me too much to put all this ciaos into deeper misery. I was thinking and thinking...all my wrongdoings, bad habits and's regrettable. All these while I was blaming other people for the misfortunates and misdeeds, I forgot to reflect things that had happenned to myself. I was actually part of the problems and I didn't realize it until today.

Right now, I just don't know what to say except I pray to God to keep on guiding me till the end of my life.

Oldest mosque in Bandung

p/s Maybe there is a reason why God is sending me to Mecca for the second time.

Monday, June 15, 2009

One Day in Penang

Last weekend my family and I went to Penang (without Amirah, my second daughter). We went to visit some relatives (my husband's side)andmy sister-in-laws who were not in the pink of health. Looking and talking to them made me think about my own parents especially my mum who were trying very hard composing the remaining of her trailing days. The courage that she has is incomparable. I knew I could never be that strong.

A very simple but very appetizing lunch under the shades of palms trees in Juru.

Like I saw Pak Ndak(arwah) sitting at the small hut.

Happy moment for Masyitah at the Feringghi Beach

p/s I was hoping to get at least a 'glimpse of the orient' in Penang...

Sunday, June 7, 2009


Saturday, June 6, 2009

6th day

As I was leaving my mother...

6th June 2009

Wednesday, June 3, 2009


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Monday, June 1, 2009

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