Sami Yusuf - Supplication

First heard this song in Kite Runner. Such a beatiful song. Gives me goosebumps.

Allahumma salli 'ala,
Sayyidina,
Muhammadin an-Nabiyyi al-ummiyyi,
Wa 'ala alihi wa sahbihi wa sallim.
(O Allah, send your peace and blessings upon our Master Muhammad, the Unlettered Prophet, and upon his family and companions.)
O My Lord,
My sins are like
The highest mountain;
My good deeds
Are very few
They’re like a small pebble.
I turn to You
My heart full of shame,
My eyes full of tears.
Bestow Your
Forgiveness and Mercy
Upon me.
Ya Allah,
Send your peace and blessings
On the Final Prophet,
And his family,
And companions,
And those who follow him.

It;s not just a number.....

I got my first wish from Asyraf
but first call from Mak and Abah and Ma.
In between,
Yana, Mila, Kak Yan, Ain, Kak Ita, Anita, Mel, Vim, Ina, Limah,Liza, Shamim...
Also,
Fadhil who went out from the lecture hall to wish me
and other students....
call from overseas-'Adilah

"Ayah bagi ibu apa?"
"Ikan 3 rasa."
"Hehehe...takde bunga?"
"Ayah bukan orang putih"

and Amirah at 10 am
Adek in Trengganu at 2pm
but none from Zura and Wa
probably they are too busy with work.
I got my last wish , surprisingly from Shamil...
and last but not least...
my first bouquet of red roses, first time in my life(!)
from Abang, unexpectedly.
It really made my day.

TQ u all for the rememberance
that 43 is not just a number...
It's a symbol that tells you that time left
is far no longer.


***Tomorrow, the journey to PD begins...(Fadhil buat hal tadi...and I had to cover up...Haru sungguh!)

Another bz day....

From morning till 6pm I've been receiving students and friends at my cubicle. I went to classes twice, meetings trice etc...etc.. I thought this problem that I had with Ning is over but NO! I was completely wrong! She was not focused and prepared and that troubles me a lot. then, I started thinking for a replacement. And what I'm about to do now is very risky. 1 more week to go for the competition and I'm still looking for the right candidate? I must be crazy..but that's what I always do...unexpected, crazy things. I'm taking my chances again. Oh God! Help me...

At home, my children didn't do much help. I even got mad at them. Malas nak cerita. Not a pleasant story to tell. And I forgot to call my mom and dad...I'll do that tomorrow. They may have slept by now.

It's 12midnight now. I'd better go to bed...gnite everyone.


One of the best movie I've ever watched. Will be remembered for a long, long time.

Lisa Hannigan - I Don't Know

I've been taking care of many people. My friends, family, parents, sisters and brothers, students and people that I know off that I deeply care although they have no blood-ties with me. I always call them, talk to them, listen to their stories, grumps and grundges, and received them at work even if I have a lot of work to be done. I will still say,"Yes?" can I help you." No rejection. If I can't see them at that time, I'll see them later. But they will always come back. My cubical is like a meeting place for many people. They even have breakfast or tea break at my table eventhough I was not eating. I don't mind, really. I like their company. They make my place such a happening spot although they know I'm always busy and my cubicle is not always tidy.

But there are times when I become like them. Wanting to tell stories or letting out my anger and frustration. Where do I go? Can't just go to any place and anyone...Uhmm...to this blog I guess (besides God)..I don't know. I really don't know..

Don't know what else to say

Since last week, life has been quiet upset down. Busy with classes, tests for students, preparation for storytelling competitions, organizing students trips which most likely to be cancelled. Observation due tomorrow, etc...etc...

Adoi, this is really giving me headaches. But surprisingly, I still managed to cook breakfast and 'bawak bekal' to work. I even share the food with my office mates. For 3 nights, I slept before 10, straight in a row. Too tired to think about other things.

last Thursday was the worst day of all. I went to see the Pengarah 4 times that day! And this very irresponsible colleague tried to 'steal' my storytelling girl from me. So, I had to fight and really stern on this matter. Nasib baik menang.

But now, Ning pulak yang buat hal...tak focus. Sakit kepala. Tapi dalam pening-pening tu, teringat jugak kat PGL. Wanted badly to see it but the only ticket left is next Sunday night. How? Hari kerja. Ambil cuti? Tak tau lagi...tapi nak tengok...

I had some consultation hours with Ning and Fadhil since the past few days. I nearly missed taking home Masyitah from school. My goodness...

Mata dah ngantuk...dah layu sangat. Have to stop now. Lagipun, apa nak cite lagi. Orang dah boring... ENOUGH SAID, I guess...



Selamat Malam.

p/s esok petang nak ambik anak2 dari sekolah pulak...

Those were the days...

Teacher's Day 1983



Me and my dormmates



First Prize, Johore First Band Competition 1980. Later represented Johore in the National First Band Competition and got Third place, behind Victoria Institution and a chinese school(can't remember the name)



Form 1(4), 1979



One of those Saturday prep hours...

1st February 1982

This is the day, about 24 years ago where the first social science class in STF was established along with class 4sc1, 4sc2 and 4sc3. I was in 4sc3 at first, 10 days after being quarantined by the matron for having chicken pox. It was one of the scariest stays I've ever had in STF (sleeping in the sick bay for a few nights) that I sneaked out from the sick-bay during weekends, about 10 o'clock at night to sleep on my own bunk-bed in the Dang Anum block.

Well, that's not what I really want to tell here. There were 4 science classes at first. No social science class yet. My friends went to classes as usual until the Pengetua, Puan Khadijah told us about the new social science class that was going to be established in 7 boarding schools that year for students who dreamed to be an accountant, architect, ambassador, etc..etc....So, since I was in Form 4 sc. 3 class just for a few days and I wasn't really interested in Science subjects, I opted for the stream. But, I have no regret after that coz I love my class, my teachers, my classmates and the subjects that I learned except Account and Economy ( I never knew I could end up marrying an account and economy major student).

I remember how all form 4 students were being called out to listen to a lecture given by the Pengetua on the 1st of February 1982. She called us rebellious and stubborn because almost all of us did not go to the classes where we were assigned to. We simply hung around our old classmates in Form 3, and that gave headaches to the administration.

"Kerana kamu semua degil sangat, saya bagi kamu peluang untuk pilih kelas kamu sendiri. Kelas social science sebelah kanan sekali. Kemudian kelas sains 3 barisan, cepat!"
And that's it! First time in history (that I know), we got the chance to choose our own class with friends and buddies that we liked...Memang hebat! Memang best! (but later on we heard gossips that the seniors did not like our action.) The hall became so noisy with students running here and and there to choose their preferred class. It was really chaotic. But at last 4 classes were formed including my class, 4 SOC SCIE (pronounced like SOK SAI).

There were 15 of us and everyday was nothing short but humour. We even organised our table into v shape just to look different. We had En Masdar as the class teacher and later our Ustazah in Form 5. The best period was Physical Education class. Cik Ramlah always allowed us to playbasket ball until the game became our favourite activity during PE. There were so many unforgetable memories left in STF but the ones that I had with my classmates and teachers were the best of all!. To my ex-classmates..........

Raja Mazlena Raja Aziz@Gina (who liked to twist her hair)
Rozana Rusli@Angah
Saidatul Baisah Shahidan@Adek
Rozita Yusuff@Jay
Rafidah@Rafi
Rozaimi Zakaria@Ami ( the first to wear tudung in class)
Ruby Jamil@Ruby
Siti Suzana Mohd Rashid@CT (who always had some soaked tissues under the desk...)
Wan Suziana wan Othman@OG (the only student in our batch who got 1 in English 1119)
Yazreen Yahya@Reen(now a beautiful Datin)
Suriani Hussein@Sue
Noraini@Nini
Salmah Mohd Noor@Ti (I tried wearing her back support once .....)
Mumtazah Mustajab@Mum (who liked to carbon-copied her letters to her mom who was residing in Brunei at that time)

I wish you all happy annivessary. Hope to see you all again, in one class, one day.

HIDUP SOC SCIE!!!





P/s: Many, many thanks to En. Hidhir, Mr Lee, Mr Ung, Ustazah bt Supok, En Masdar, Cik Nazirah, 'Cikgu Akaun', Mr Ekonomi, 'Cikgu Geography', Cik Ramlah...